Understanding My Emotional State
I am currently studying in the second year of Inter and I am 18 years old. Lately, depression has not left me at all. I find myself being very emotional about everything. My final exam for Inter is approaching, followed by the pressure of university admissions. Observing the struggles of other admission candidates makes me feel anxious about my own future.
Emotional Sensitivity and Struggles
I am very sensitive to negative comments. Whenever someone says something unpleasant to me, I find it difficult to cope. I feel overwhelmed, my throat tightens, and I struggle to express myself. Even minor criticism affects me deeply, and I cannot easily brush it off.
Struggles with Jealousy and Personal Boundaries
Jealousy is another issue I struggle with. I want my belongings and relationships to remain mine alone. This might not be a good thing, but I find it difficult to change. For example, I had a best friend whom I valued deeply. However, when they made new friends, I felt hurt and distanced myself. Over time, I managed to overcome this, but I still struggle with similar feelings in other situations.
Overwhelming Stress and Self-Doubt
Lately, stress has consumed me, and I feel like nothing will work out for me. I sometimes feel like I am a “lost project” in my parents’ eyes, unable to meet their expectations despite their hard work and sacrifices. This thought weighs heavily on me.
Dealing with OCD and Introversion
I also have tendencies of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). A messy house makes me feel uneasy, and I cannot focus until everything is in order. Even minor disturbances make me hyper and restless. Additionally, I am a serious introvert, finding it difficult to open up to people except for a few I trust.
Seeking Solutions and Moving Forward
I understand that these struggles require self-awareness and effort to overcome. I am considering ways to manage my emotions better, whether through professional guidance, self-help techniques, or opening up to trusted individuals. While these feelings are overwhelming, I hope to find a way to navigate them and build a healthier mindset.
What can I do to handle these emotions better? Any advice would be appreciated.