Life has a way of throwing challenges at us, and sometimes it feels as though we’re surrounded by darkness. But even in the hardest times, there is always hope, and there are always people and moments that remind us of our strength. This is my story—one of feeling lost, misunderstood, and trying to find a way to heal from the pain of others’ words.
A Lifetime of Insults and Doubts
Since my childhood, I have grown up hearing many hurtful things. People would call me names based on my appearance, telling me that I was “too dark” and “too tall” to ever be loved. These words haunted me and left deep scars in my heart. I was always different from what society expected, and I never felt accepted. Even as a young girl in class 9, when my mother was eager to see me married, my father encouraged me to focus on my studies. For a while, I felt some sense of peace in knowing my education was valued.
But recently, my world began to shift again. A businessman came to see me with the intention of marriage. My family was pleased with the environment, but when they saw me, they said, “She’s a little dark, and tall.” Just like that, the marriage proposal fell apart. My heart shattered, and since then, things have not been the same at home. I no longer feel the love and support from my father that I once did.
The Burden of Parental Expectations
It feels unbearable to have the people I love and trust the most—my own family—be the ones who now make me feel inadequate. My father and mother both have said things behind my back that crush my spirit, especially the comment that when I grow older, no one will want to marry me. It’s heartbreaking. I am struggling to hold onto my worth when it feels like everyone else is focused only on my flaws.
At times, I wonder why I was born this way. Being dark-skinned feels like a curse, and I wonder if this is the reason for all the hurt and rejection. I pray for a quick end, as the weight of it all is becoming too much to bear. It feels as though my patience has run out, and the darkness surrounding me is suffocating. I feel like I am slowly fading.
Reaching Out for Help
In moments like these, it’s essential to remember that your worth is not defined by your appearance. Your skin color, height, or any other physical trait is not a measure of your value. You are a beautiful, unique individual with so much to offer the world. The opinions of others, especially those driven by narrow beauty standards, are not the truth of who you are.
It’s important to talk to someone you trust—whether it’s a friend, counselor, or anyone who can listen without judgment. You don’t have to carry this burden alone. Depression is a heavy weight, but seeking support can help ease the pain. There is always hope, even when it feels distant.
Patience and Self-Love
While it may seem impossible to find peace in the middle of so much hurt, remember that patience is a powerful tool. Allah has blessed you with great patience, and it will help guide you through this difficult period. Your life is precious, and the pain you feel now does not define your future. Allah has a plan for you, even when it seems unclear.
Believe in yourself and your potential. The right people will see your worth and appreciate the beautiful person you are, both inside and out. Your family, though they may not fully understand now, will eventually see that your true beauty lies in your heart and your strength.
Moving Forward with Hope
I know it’s hard to see through the fog of sadness, but I promise you, there is light ahead. Keep fighting for your happiness and well-being, and don’t let anyone’s hurtful words define who you are. You are worthy of love, respect, and a life filled with joy. Hold on to hope, because better days are coming.
You are not alone in this journey, and I pray that you find peace and comfort in the days ahead.